There will be a additional pages put up for our beloved panda, as
soon as all of us here at ATR can grasp our personal loss.
This and other pages for the things she loved
and special comments by those she loved will be added.
The ATR family was blessed by panda’s brilliant work, but more important her friendship since the beginning of ATR in 1998. You will see her graphics and designs throughout the web site, from the galleries of Caedfel, SirWolfr1, jazmyne, to some of the pages on rose’s columns. You can also gaze at the artistic and caring panda throughout the memorial gardens. She took a vision and made it come to past and all you see in the memorial gardens from the opening page to the markers therein were all created by panda.
We are lost without her, and you must forgive us for our tears, because she was not just a wonderful designer and friend, she was a person who gave her all and touched all those she met in a way that their lives would be forever changed.
panda passed from this world on the evening of April 24, 2007 at the age of 42 after a long battle and from complications of HIV. If you look around the castle grounds, especially where there are forests, you will see her watching as she has done all of these years.
We close this part of panda's memorial with sharing something a dear friend of panda’s wrote in an email to all of us on the night
panda died; “In the mist of everything panda held onto her personality and sense of humor. She was always getting a little joke or comment in, of course with a smile.
panda was one of the strongest people I've known. Her need to give was incredible. I would go to help out and visit with her and she would in one way or another, end up encouraging me. She always wanted to know what was going on and loved to listen, with a smile. She was a truly wonderful friend and I will greatly miss her.“
Rest in peace our beautiful panda bear, you did well and you shall be missed for a very long time, but know you are held close to our heart always.
ATR asks for prayers and positive thoughts for all of us who loved panda, as we try to grasp this very difficult time in our own grief.
We espeically ask for thoughts and prayers for Tom "Daddy Spanks", whom panda loved very much and everytime panda and rose spoke
panda asked only that we be here for Tom, becuase she knew how hard all of this would be for him.
Vale
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
In the silence of each night,
Hold your faith, will be aright.
Friends from around the world,
In their hearts, soft, firm hold.
Fears creep in cowardly array,
They cannot stand the light of day.
Nagging cloying carping doubt,
Believe Us girl, We'll put to route.
Whatever is thy time of day,
Somewhere's one of us to pray.
Holding in Our heart thy care,
Symbol with you, panda bear.
Caleb, mischief , pooh bear too,
Love their girl , through and through.
Beside you Panda sleeps and growls,
No mercy shown to night fear prowls.
As a sleen once near ate pan,
So nightsleens now from Panda ran.
Courage girl, feel Us pray,
As safe abed you do lay.
We pray too for doctors skill,
Soon invading infection kill.
Whole, recovered , quite complete,
Skipping ,dancing, serves a treat!
Kris, tigger, panda bear,
Unique and beyond compare.
Feel the love from all your friends,
Praying hard that girl soon mends.
...You had the grace to hold yourself
While those around you crawled
They crawled out of the woodwork
And they whispered into your brain
They set you on the treadmill
And they made you change your name
...Loneliness was tough
The toughest role you ever played
...And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in.
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend never will
Midi and words from Candle in the Wind written by Elton John,
sequenced by Norma Williams
Used with permssion
If you would like to do something in memory of panda, Tom has requested you
contribute to panda's favorite cause and Adopt A Panda
Please sign panda's guestbook we are reading it to Tom and each
other several times a day.
